Thursday, April 2, 2015

Coming Home

Dear, Friends and Family,
I hope you are all doing well. I know this may come as a great shock to many, but I write to share that I have decided to leave the Jesuit Volunteer Corps and will be returning home next week. I have decided to make this life decision after a period of discernment with program staff, community-mates, family and my own personal reflection after getting to know the program better since committing to it March of last year. I have chosen to return home for a number of reasons, including how different my experience has been than my expectations as well as some personal reasons. I hope to have more conversations in-person or online and want to thank everyone who has supported me in choosing the Jesuit Volunteer Corps and who continue to support me in this transition out of the program. I also want to especially address donors who have financially supported me in my fundraising campaign and want to share that a majority of the funds raised have supported me in these last four months and the remaining amount will support other Jesuit Volunteers in advancing the program's vision and mission. I have tried to be as intentional as possible about this discernment process and hope to continue to live out the program's values of simple living, social justice, spirituality, and community in new ways.
I ask for your understanding, thoughts and prayers as I change course onto a new path and look to future job and school opportunities.
Sincerely,
Alex

Wednesday, February 18, 2015

Celebrations, Travel, and Work!

18 Feb 2014

The last three and a half weeks have been very full! Work started, our program coordinator from the U.S. visited, two of my community-mates and I visited Granada, and we celebrated Padre Fernando Cardenal's birthday at our home, to name some of the bigger events.

First off, Granada. Granada is one of the more touristy cities in Nicaragua today, located next to Lake Nicaragua (one of the biggest lakes in the world and I believe home to the world's only freshwater sharks! Bull sharks swim up to the lake by way of the Rio San Juan which feeds into the Caribbean.) Earlier in Nicaraguan history, Granada was home to the Conservatives of the country, while Leon was home to the Liberals. There was a debate about which city would be the capital of the country, but eventually Managua, which lays between the two cities, was named the country's capital.

It was nice to take this two-day, one-night trip before work started. Granada is about two-hours' travel from Ciudad Sandino. While it was nice to see the city I had heard much about, it was tough to see how 'touristy' it was; by this I mean, how different it was from other heavily populated areas of Nicaragua. The clean, well-paved and fairly quiet streets didn't show the reality of much of other parts of the country I've seen; it was a different world. I can only imagine someone passing only through Granada and what their false impression of the level of poverty in Nicaragua might be.

After the Granada trip, I went to a talk at Casa Ben Linder (the weekly social justice talks in Managua) on the topic of unpaid work of women in the fair-trade market. A doctoral student from Britain shared the work she's done on her dissertation while in Nicaragua. Women's direct and indirect labor put into fair-trade production isn't always accounted for by fair-trade companies, including women's domestic work that allows the men to work out of the home as well as women's work to bring water to the home where some of the direct production takes place. The presenter shared a story of how a company had only accounted for the men's work, but hoped to take a progressive stance by including the entirety of women's work in the cost of production. While some cooperatives have been formed to give money directly to women living and working in communities that are involved in the production, some challenges remain as to whether more work is created for the women through these cooperatives where, in addition to being out of the home to be at the cooperative, these women might still do a lot of the domestic work or more domestic work is passed onto their children. Furthermore, sometimes the cooperatives offer job training for women to have their own businesses, but these might create even more work and/or be reinstating gender roles with the certain jobs trained for, such as pastry-making. This talk, along with other talks at Ben Linder, have been giving me food for thought and reflection.

Next up was a big birthday weekend! A fellow Nica JV, Yoli (short for Yolanda) celebrated her birthday at the end of January, so we went out dancing in Managua which was a lot of fun! The next day we celebrated Padre Fernando Cardenal's birthday at our home here in Ciudad Sandino! It worked out that he was able to visit our home and, in addition to celebrating his birthday, we also did a small re-dedication of our home, which is named after him and his brother, Ernesto Cardenal. Below is an excerpt from the Jesuit Volunteer Directory regarding the name of our home:

“Casa Cardenal is named in honor of two modern-day saints of Nicaragua and champions of liberation theology: brothers Ernesto and Fernando Cardenal. Ernesto Cardenal, a diocesan priest who studied under Thomas Merton, is known as one of the preeminent poets in Nicaraguan history. He was named Minister of Culture for the new Sandinista regime in the wake of the Nicaraguan Revolution. He served here for eight years and was infamously scolded by Pope John Paul II for not obeying the request that he resign from his role in the government. Currently, Ernesto Cardenal lives in Nicaragua where he writes poetry and promotes Nicaraguan culture. Fernando Cardenal, SJ, became a Jesuit priest in 1969 and moved to Medellin, Colombia, for his first apostolate. It was there, surrounded by people in abject poverty, that he says he found direction and vowed to dedicate his life to 'the liberation of the poor and to the struggle for justice.' In 1979, Cardenal was named Minister of Education for Nicaragua and led the country in raising literacy rates. Like his brother, Fernando was scolded for his role as an ordained clergy member serving in the government. The Jesuits expelled him for his disobedience but he was eventually readmitted to the society. Today, Fernando Cardenal, SJ, works as a Jesuit priest and is the Director of Fe y Alegria in Nicaragua, a Catholic, popular-education network with schools around the country, including three that host JVs in Ciudad Sandino.”

The birthday celebration and rededication at our home was a lot of fun and also very special for our community. It was really exciting to meet Padre Fernando Cardenal, whom I had heard and read much about. He is also the national director for the Fe y Alegria popular education movement, which includes the school where I work. A few volunteers put on a very nice musical performance in our living room and invited us all to sing the song “Casa Abierta” together. It's a really nice song if you're able to look it up. Next, we invited Padre Fernando to leave his painted hand on a mural in our home. Every JV here in Ciudad Sandino, at the end of their two years of service, places their hand on this mural, where there is a quote that reads: “Caminante, no hay camino. Se hace el camino al andar.” or roughly “Traveler, there is no path. You make the path as you walk.” After the rededication, we enjoyed a beef stew with rice and a fresco drink that my community-mate Edwin and I whipped up. Then for dessert, we had an awesome cake that my community-mate Colleen made. Before the end of the night, Padre Cardenal invited us to have dinner with his Jesuit community and also to hear a talk that he has given in many parts of North America regarding his life and work, especially in the context of the Nicaraguan Revolution. (I'm almost certain a video of his talk at John Carroll University can be found online. This past Thursday Pd. Cardenal actually gave a similar talk for the Casa Ben Linder talk of the week!)

The day of the birthday celebration was also the first day of our U.S. coordinator Billy's visit to the country. He spent a total of about 12 days here, visiting our work-sites and having conversations with volunteers as communities as well as individually. It appeared to be the first of its kind in the last two years, so the JVC U.S. office is reestablishing the strength of its support for volunteers in the country. While Billy is a new coordinator for the JVC program in Nicaragua, he appeared to be learning a lot while down here and hopefully makes more visits like this to better support Nica JVs in the future. On Billy's final night here, all of the volunteers as well as people who support us here in different capacities enjoyed a Salvadoran pupusa dinner together in Managua.

As for work, my first day was on February 2nd and that day I had a meeting with Billy, Fr. Joe (our in-country coordinator) and the principal at Nuestra Senora de Guadalupe. I believe I mentioned this in a previous post, but again for some context, when I arrived to Nicaragua, it appeared that the Fe y Alegria volunteer job descriptions were being reevaluated. A decision was made to not have volunteers teach at the schools, due largely to lack of experience in teaching and discipline, not to mention how those skills might function in a Nicaraguan school context. For this reason, my job description of “teaching English, possibly religion, with opportunity for extracurricular and pastoral work” was decided to change to “doing English reinforcement for small groups, pastoral work, and social projects at the school, which might include sports and visiting families in the community.” This decision was brought up in a conversation as to what the school might need with this “no-volunteer-teaching” policy as well as what my interests might be. Since this meeting with the principal, in-country coordinator, and U.S. coordinator, I have been spending time at the school getting to know the teachers, staff, and school by attending meetings, observing classrooms, and chatting with adults and students at the school. I have yet to finalize my work schedule, but hope to do so soon enough. The students arrived to the school on Feb. 9 and it's been nice to get to know names and faces little by little. As expected, the school has been a lot more active with the students around.

Finally, this past weekend, my community-mate Rose, a JV in Managua Emily, and I attended a wedding of a family we know in a rural community called El Arenal. The family was my first home-stay family after arriving to the country, and they were Emily's home-stay family when she first came to the country over a year ago. Rose has also become a good friend of the family. The wedding was for the son of our host-mother and it was really nice to reconnect with the family and to also see all the effort put into wedding preparation. There was a mass at the local church and then everyone gathered at their home to celebrate with food and dancing. It was a really nice time and fun to see how our host-family celebrates weddings. We helped make some of the frescos as well as decorations for the party.  

Some things coming up on the agenda include a talk tomorrow at Casa Ben Linder given by Walter Sandino, the grandson of major Nicaraguan Revolutionary figure whom our city is named after, Augusto Cesar Sandino. I'm really looking forward to it! And then next Monday is my dad's birthday back home, so send some birthday love his way! And the following weekend, my community- mate Katie and a JV in Managua Maddie are celebrating their birthdays! Lots of birthdays on the horizon!

Hope everyone's well!

Alex














Sunday, January 25, 2015

Before School Starts


22 Jan 2014

The school year starts in about a week and a half! Where has the time gone?? Katie, Colleen, and I have been aprovechando – or making the most of – our time until our work at the Fe y Alegria schools begins. In addition to some scheduled events, like talks on education and ecclesiology as well as a weekend retreat, we've been adding some personal touches to the house we're living in as well as doing some general cleaning and rearranging. Like any house, ours has experienced some wear and tear over the years, with Jesuit Volunteers first occupying the space here in 2008. Before the volunteers, nuns who worked at a local school and, later, German doctors working at a clinic lived here. Right now, the lot we live on has two houses, one for us and the other for three teachers in the area.

Katie, Colleen, and I each fully painted one of the walls in our room. It was our 1st year group project. (see pictures below) We might paint Rose and Edwin's rooms if they're up for it. We found a paint stash in our storage room here and decided to give the rooms a little more life, especially before we begin the academic year. I reallyfeel thankful for the time we've had to transition into the year. I'm certain things will become busier, but with this, hopefully new relationships will be built, along with those of my community-mates.

The talk on education was limited by time, but we learned the structure of different school systems here in Nica. We were told that there are public, private, and semi-private schools here. All fall under the government's educational branch called MINED. While the public schools receive all funding from the government and private schools receive much from tuition, the semi-private schools are a little different; they include parochial schools – which receive half gov. money and half from the institutional Church – and the Fe y Alegria schools, which receive all their funds from the government, even with the relationship to the Jesuits. [As an aside, there is a separation of church and state here in Nica, however, I do remember seeing nearly life-size Nativity scenes along the major road downtown, each one sponsored by different groups, including ministries of the government.]

We were told that Fe y Alegria is more of a movement than a school system, and focuses largely on two things: popular education and social promotion. Under popular education, I believe fall two core tenets: a system of quality as well as gender equality; it was implied that we would have more exposure to these tenets as time goes along. We also talked about holistic approaches to education as well as how the students are the protagonists in personal and communal development.

In our talk on ecclesiology with two ex-Jesuits, we touched on what the role of the Catholic Church as well as Evangelical and other churches look like in modern-day Nicaragua. We also touched on images of God that each of us carry and images that might be projected by certain faith groups in Nica. We touched a bit on liberation theology, a theology that was born in Central America in the 60's and 70's that emphasized a Catholic church for the materially poor and related themes of social change and being agents for change. Gustavo Guiterrez and Oscar Romero are some names that come to mind with liberation theology. It appears that while in its earlier years this type of theology was formulated on an intellectual level, it is being laid out more practically these years.

To quickly touch on another experience in the last weeks, the ten Jesuit Volunteers here in Nica had a Life Graphs Retreat where we shared life stories at a retreat center to deepen our relationships. It was nice to have a sacred space to do so and, in turn, build community among all of us who will be spending the next year together.

Finally, this morning, Katie, Colleen, and I attended a talk at, what I would call, a consciousness-raising center called Casa Ben Linder in Managua. Casa Ben Linder is named after the first U.S. citizen who was killed by the U.S.-backed counter-revolutionaries, or Contras, in Nicaragua after the Sandinista revolutionaries won the civil war in 1979. Ben Linder was from Portland, Oregon, and decided a few years after college to offer his engineering talents here in the country. While working in rural communities to bring electricity into them, he was assassinated. His life and story are much richer than my sketch here, but suffice it to say, Ben Linder became the namesake of the house in Nicaraguan's tradition of naming buildings after their heroes and martyrs. The talks at Casa Ben Linder take place every Thursday morning. This morning, we listened to a Nicaraguan group called ArtePintura that brings art and music classes to communities that might not otherwise have access. We were there alongside a delegation from a non-profit called International Partners in Mission, the same non-profit I went with to El Salvador. I was able to reconnect with one of the same guides I had nearly two years ago!

Coming up on the agenda before work starts: a talk on politics, more on Fe y Alegria, more cleaning, some local trips, and plans to have Fernando Cardenal, a Nicaraguan Jesuit, major player in both the revolution and world-renowned national literacy campaign of the 1980's, and one of the namesakes of our house, over to our home for dinner to celebrate his birthday next week! We're hoping to confirm the dinner soon and plan the celebration! How cool it would be to meet him in-person.

Til next time,
Alex








Friday, January 16, 2015

One Month In!

Hi, friends and family! After some technical difficulties, I´ve been able to post this reflection from last week. I hope to post around every 2 weeks on a regular basis!


09 Jan 2015


Can't believe it's 2015 and that it's been a full three weeks since my last post. Life here during our in-country orientation has been stressful, fun, exciting, doubtful... a mixed bag of feelings; especially because we've been through both Christmas and New Year's away from home. It's also hard to believe that it's been a full month this week... I can and can't believe where the time has gone. We're back home now, settling down more which has been a big relief.

Since my first in-country post a few weeks ago, we've done a number of things:


A second home-stay in our town, Ciudad Sandino; a talk on gender, women, and family here in Nica; a tour of a coffee farm owned by a former Jesuit volunteer; a tour of Managua with our in-country coordinator, Fr. Joe; Christmas mass, dinner, and festivities; a home-stay in the countryside with a small community of 139 people and a Spanish lanuage school for foreigners; goodbyes to outgoing volunteers; lunch with a student delegation from Boston College; and some time spent with my community-mate Rose's family.


Phew! It's been a lot! Definitely a lot of fun thrown in there, even when it felt like I was always living out of a bag! It's been nice to see, learn, and experience new parts of Nicaragua from the touristy excursion into Managua to the day-to-day life of families who hosted us. I'm still doing a lot of processing as our itinerary slows down a bit, but I can say that despite how chaotic the last few weeks have been, they have helped me contextualize the “deep end of the pool” we just jumped into.


Community life is slowly taking shape as we move into a more regular schedule and summer vacation comes to a close for some of us. (Summer vacation in Nica is usually sometime between Nov. and Jan. with flexible dates on either end, it seems.) Along with my fellow 1st years in the house, Colleen and Katie, I will be starting work with the Fe y Alegria school system sometime on February 2. We will be meeting with our individual schools, our in-country coordinator, and our program coordinator visiting from the U.S. in the coming weeks. Back in March when I said 'Yes' to JVC, I was told I would be “teaching English, possibly religion, at a K-12 school with opportunity for extracurricular and pastoral work.” Broad, right? But with this, I was also asked to be adaptable as to how the position might be different when I arrived in-country. I believe it relates to one of the program's tenets of apostolic availability, being available to serve where called after some discussion and discernment. For this reason, I'm hoping our meetings in the coming weeks will be fruitful.


Aside from the work anticipation, life is calming down from the holiday season, as I would guess it is back in the States. Hopefully, once our community adopts a more regular schedule, life will be a bit smoother. We're making chore charts and other community-related charts in the house this week, including a dinner-making schedule (I have Friday) and a schedule for one-with-ones - or what we're going to call “encounters” where once a week each of us is paired up with a community-mate to spend some one-with-one time together. It's pretty funny because our house-dog Muñeco is also on the list: when you're paired up with him, you give him his weekly bath!


My spanish has been improving little by little; I felt pretty rusty when we first arrived. Thankfully the home-stays gave me some space to gain some traction; however, many Nicaraguans speak too quickly for me to catch every word. Hopefully some day I can understand it all! We have been learning a lot about Nica slang, as well as the 'vos' form which is used very often in Central American countries. It's another way of using the second personal or 'tu' form that suggests a certain level of familiarity and confidence when used between two people. I'm guessing we'll use it more as time goes on. Some fun slang and other commonly used words/phrases have been:


chunche: a thing

chocho: wow!

Chele/chela: a lighter-skinned person

bacanal: a big party

chancho: pig

dale pues: alright then / go for it then

adios: goodbye, but which here you use in passing to say hello and goodbye at once; it's pretty funny because it feels like I'm just telling people bye as I see them in passing.

Buenas: you shout this when you arrive to someone's door or a little convenience store window to let the person know you have arrived

gallo pinto: a rice-bean mixture (you'll find similar dishes in other countries, but they usually have different names, like “casamiento” or “marriage” for a similar dish in El Salvador)

fresco: a  usually-sweet drink you can buy in the streets or at little stores (a lot of drinks here, including water while you're on the go, are sold in plastic bags; sometimes the bags have a straw or you bite off a corner of the bag to make a hole for drinking. I remember first seeing this in El Salvador. I'm guessing it uses less plastic than other plastic containers or cups, and likely less expensive.)


I hope to share more words as the days go by!

I finally have some pictures to share from our first month in-country! The first picture is of me and my fellow first years, Katie in the middle and Colleen on her left. The second picture is from the coffee farm we visited; it includes one of the first Jesuit Volunteers in Nicaragua along with his wife, as well as nearly all of the other Jesuit Volunteers living in Nica. Rose and Edwin the 2nd years of our community are on the left and right of the photo in the back row. (There are two JV communities in Nica, one in Managua and one in Ciudad Sandino, with 5 volunteers each. This year, there are three 1st years and two 2nd years in each.) The bottom three are pictures of picking coffee, Christmas decorating (the chicken is one of our pets), and a waterfall from one of our homestays in the campo (you can slide down the center of the fall!)


Tonight, we'll be having dinner with a delegation of students from John Carroll University, tomorrow we'll have talks on education and ecclesiology & the church in Nicaragua, and Sunday we have our first group trip to the beach!


Hope everyone had a happy and healthy holiday season! Happy New Year! And here begins Year 1 of my time with the Jesuit Volunteer Corps in Nica!

Alex

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Edwin trying to put Felicia, our chicken, under the Christmas tree

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